I want to go back to blogging but I don't know where to start. And I don't know how I'm going to keep up with it not when I know the next few months will be pure bliss for me.
Note sarcasm. Please and thank you.
You know those days when you feel like shit for absolutely no reason and everything that comes your way seems to do nothing to help with it? I'm having that day today. And I can't sleep--more precisely, don't want to sleep because I don't feel like it. Shit is all I feel. Shit.
There have been events that contributed to this...emotion..whatever you want to call it. But I'm pretty sure on a regular day I would be in a better mood even if those events happened. Now everything just seems to appear crappy and unappealing to me. Even jogging. How can I loathe jogging? I used to dig that shit.
If you count the number of times I used the word 'shit', you would have a solid reason to send me for confession. The one thing I did not go for a long time...cause...I don't know. Why didn't I go again? Oh yeah. It was too long ago for me to remember. Oh well.
You know...I'm not exactly the nicest person out there...But I give people second chances. Not always, but I do. It's just sad to me that people don't give me any chances (sometimes, specifically now), and instead make things worse for me. I'm not hoping for anything when I do something good for someone, but I'm always hearing the same thing "Do for others what you want done for you." And cause of that, I'm just here wondering, "Um...am I missing something?" Cause I'm not getting the similar treatment I give people.
That is a mini rant for one of the events that happened today. I'm not gonna continue ranting. Ranting is for yellowbellies.
Results tomorrow. If I have to repeat Moral, so be it I'm gonna go smother myself with ice-cream. If not then...I don't know what went wrong...Hahaha. I couldn't even answer half of the paper. Heck...I made my own theories. But yeah. Just gonna count my blessings and shut my mouth.
Goodnight and till next time...if I do come back.
Friday, December 28, 2012
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Blog post of mostly confusion...and mixed feelings...I think?
I'm not in the mood to blog right now but I thought I'd leave a post before I go missing again for another 2-3 months.
Just kidding. I've been wanting to blog..I just didn't have the time to open my laptop. If I did, I wouldn't have the internet to occupy myself with.
So...somewhere between marking pages of confusing (and horrible, might I add) work and vomiting blood because of it... my English went a little ugly. I don't know, I think it did. I'm making a lot of mistakes and it's quite... I don't know how to say it. It makes me uncomfortable.
Only because the people I mix with these days are pretty special. I have other adjectives to describe them with but they're pretty offensive so....
Never mind. By the way, this next picture serves as a reminder for me on Wednesday:
I'm pretty calm right now, like what I was when I took the exam but I don't know what's going to happen when I actually take the results. At times like this I really wish I could see the future. But then again....it's best if I don't have to collect anything at all.
I've been preparing myself mentally anyway, because good or bad, people are going to ask me what I got. That's something I can't avoid, unfortunately. No matter how much I don't want them to, people are still going to be..people.
All my life I've always been a little more anxious than everyone else so this year feels a little weird cause I'm not actually worried about it like I normally would be. I mean, I am worried, but no, not really. It just feels empty. Not happy not sad not nothing.
I also notice that I've been avoiding facebook and contacting in general. I don't know why. It's not something I intentionally do. I just don't feel like going out there. It doesn't feel right.
This is a very familiar feeling. Hopefully, I'll snap out of it.
In case anyone's wondering, (internet souls, lol) the last few weeks have been rocky for me. I'm not going to go into detail, but yeah. I am alive, I've just been really busy doing work (and a lot of overtime. I don't even know how that is possible when I work in my own house).
I've also been doing a lot retail therapy. I wanted to snap a photo of the cosmetics I've bought this month ALONE to show you how serious it is, but then I got lazy. Hah. Trust me when I say a lot.
I've also been baking. (Another stress reliever, yay!) Pictures in my phone. Too lazy to connect the damn thing into this bloody laptop.
Also, I'll be spending my day at the edu fair tomorrow. Seriously, why am I getting a prelude to a week I know is going to be horrible? WHY?
There are more creative ways to torture me. Just sayin.
Before I attempt to sleep, here's a saying I'm trying to stick to :
Don't make mountains out of molehills.
Goodnight.
Just kidding. I've been wanting to blog..I just didn't have the time to open my laptop. If I did, I wouldn't have the internet to occupy myself with.
So...somewhere between marking pages of confusing (and horrible, might I add) work and vomiting blood because of it... my English went a little ugly. I don't know, I think it did. I'm making a lot of mistakes and it's quite... I don't know how to say it. It makes me uncomfortable.
Only because the people I mix with these days are pretty special. I have other adjectives to describe them with but they're pretty offensive so....
Never mind. By the way, this next picture serves as a reminder for me on Wednesday:
I've been preparing myself mentally anyway, because good or bad, people are going to ask me what I got. That's something I can't avoid, unfortunately. No matter how much I don't want them to, people are still going to be..people.
All my life I've always been a little more anxious than everyone else so this year feels a little weird cause I'm not actually worried about it like I normally would be. I mean, I am worried, but no, not really. It just feels empty. Not happy not sad not nothing.
I also notice that I've been avoiding facebook and contacting in general. I don't know why. It's not something I intentionally do. I just don't feel like going out there. It doesn't feel right.
This is a very familiar feeling. Hopefully, I'll snap out of it.
In case anyone's wondering, (internet souls, lol) the last few weeks have been rocky for me. I'm not going to go into detail, but yeah. I am alive, I've just been really busy doing work (and a lot of overtime. I don't even know how that is possible when I work in my own house).
I've also been doing a lot retail therapy. I wanted to snap a photo of the cosmetics I've bought this month ALONE to show you how serious it is, but then I got lazy. Hah. Trust me when I say a lot.
I've also been baking. (Another stress reliever, yay!) Pictures in my phone. Too lazy to connect the damn thing into this bloody laptop.
Also, I'll be spending my day at the edu fair tomorrow. Seriously, why am I getting a prelude to a week I know is going to be horrible? WHY?
There are more creative ways to torture me. Just sayin.
Before I attempt to sleep, here's a saying I'm trying to stick to :
Don't make mountains out of molehills.
Goodnight.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Look here, everyone.
I wanted to try to type a post about it but ITS JUST TOO HILLARIOUS! YOU HAVE TO READ IT YOURSELF!
How random can a conversation get?!
Enjoy. HAHAHAHA.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Omegle Addiction.
Damn the thought that led me to Omegle three days ago. Damn the Omegle app. Damn everything about Omegle because now, there's a very good chance that I'm addicted to it.
And no, I don't go there to mix with the hornies. Oh God, that's the part of Omegle I hate the most.
(There are three types of people in Omegle: The hornies, The bored ones, The hyper ones. The horny ones are the ones that start with 'Asl' and 'omg i'm so hard come TUT my TUT'. The bored ones are the ones that start with 'hey', 'how are you?' and occasionally something witty. The hyper ones start with 'YO WASSUP MY NIGGA?' or 'THE END IS NEAR. DONT TELL ME I DIDN'T WARN YOU'. Most of the time they capslock what they say. Oh and by the way, my usual response to a horny person's asl is 6666,devil himself, hell. Thought you'd like to know that.)
These days I'm just dead bored :( there's nothing to do, nowhere to go, nothing. I don't work till Wednesday, so the only thing that passes my time is Omegle.... and touch pet cats.
The funniest thing happened the other day. I was in the mood to turn a horny person off so I purposely led a guy on until I asked him if he's horny or not.
He said yes, I am.
Then i told him this isn't the place to find sexual activity, he should have more respect for himself etc etc.
The dude didn't disconnect on me, may I add. He just sat through my motherly talk while saying that I'm speaking rubbish and that I'm saying every guy on Omegle rapes the girl they 'have fun with'.
I then told him to get married. He responded by asking my hand in marriage. HAH, a marriage proposal at 18. I should feel flattered.
But unfortunately, i didn't feel flattered. Even if I said yes, what are the chances that it would happen? Such an ass. I told him I don't marry people I just got to know for 5 minutes.
Then he continued saying I spoke pure rubbish. Until, he decided to ask. "So, tell me the truth. You don't do these things? You're a virgin?"
I told him yes. I'm keeping it for marriage. It would mean so much more.
And that's when he changed. He apologized and said it's pretty rare to find virgin girls.
Well..little does he know it isn't rare from where I come from. Or, so I think. I'm not sure...
After that he made decent conversations with me and left.
That night I was quite happy of my turning men off skills. I don't know if it's true... but it sure felt that way! I mean, if he was still horny, he wouldn't have stayed to talk about life and how he has no girlfriend -.-
And if you were wondering, no, I did not give him any of my personal information. I did tell him fake info about me though. So, safe to say, he stayed to talk. Not to convince me to trade pictures with him.
After that, I did try to practice my turning men off skills on other guys. But it didn't work. Mostly disconnected. A few rare ones called me vulgar names.
But if you know me well enough, you would know that I LIVE TO MOCK. I made sure they disconnected on me because of my tongue of the devil.
One thing for sure--if you're on Omegle and you're horny, you'd hate to come my way!
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This post is purely for entertainment. And it is also living proof that I have nothing better to do with my life.
If I have more interesting stories, I'll post them!
And no, I don't go there to mix with the hornies. Oh God, that's the part of Omegle I hate the most.
(There are three types of people in Omegle: The hornies, The bored ones, The hyper ones. The horny ones are the ones that start with 'Asl' and 'omg i'm so hard come TUT my TUT'. The bored ones are the ones that start with 'hey', 'how are you?' and occasionally something witty. The hyper ones start with 'YO WASSUP MY NIGGA?' or 'THE END IS NEAR. DONT TELL ME I DIDN'T WARN YOU'. Most of the time they capslock what they say. Oh and by the way, my usual response to a horny person's asl is 6666,devil himself, hell. Thought you'd like to know that.)
These days I'm just dead bored :( there's nothing to do, nowhere to go, nothing. I don't work till Wednesday, so the only thing that passes my time is Omegle.... and touch pet cats.
The funniest thing happened the other day. I was in the mood to turn a horny person off so I purposely led a guy on until I asked him if he's horny or not.
He said yes, I am.
Then i told him this isn't the place to find sexual activity, he should have more respect for himself etc etc.
The dude didn't disconnect on me, may I add. He just sat through my motherly talk while saying that I'm speaking rubbish and that I'm saying every guy on Omegle rapes the girl they 'have fun with'.
I then told him to get married. He responded by asking my hand in marriage. HAH, a marriage proposal at 18. I should feel flattered.
But unfortunately, i didn't feel flattered. Even if I said yes, what are the chances that it would happen? Such an ass. I told him I don't marry people I just got to know for 5 minutes.
Then he continued saying I spoke pure rubbish. Until, he decided to ask. "So, tell me the truth. You don't do these things? You're a virgin?"
I told him yes. I'm keeping it for marriage. It would mean so much more.
And that's when he changed. He apologized and said it's pretty rare to find virgin girls.
Well..little does he know it isn't rare from where I come from. Or, so I think. I'm not sure...
After that he made decent conversations with me and left.
That night I was quite happy of my turning men off skills. I don't know if it's true... but it sure felt that way! I mean, if he was still horny, he wouldn't have stayed to talk about life and how he has no girlfriend -.-
And if you were wondering, no, I did not give him any of my personal information. I did tell him fake info about me though. So, safe to say, he stayed to talk. Not to convince me to trade pictures with him.
After that, I did try to practice my turning men off skills on other guys. But it didn't work. Mostly disconnected. A few rare ones called me vulgar names.
But if you know me well enough, you would know that I LIVE TO MOCK. I made sure they disconnected on me because of my tongue of the devil.
One thing for sure--if you're on Omegle and you're horny, you'd hate to come my way!
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This post is purely for entertainment. And it is also living proof that I have nothing better to do with my life.
If I have more interesting stories, I'll post them!
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Back and broke.
If there was a scale from rich to broke, the 'broke-est' a person could ever get would be called a Landy.
This is not good. Having bank accounts suck. I prefer the days when I kept money in some brown envelope cause then, I NEVER overspent money. I loved looking at the envelope thickening with money and I would rarely spend it. Unless of course...there was something I really, really wanted to get. Now, I don't know. I spend money like my mother grows a money tree behind our house (It would be awesome if she did). I can only imagine what I'd do if I have a credit card. You know what I should do? I should start reading up on self-control. And financial management.
I'll get my salary on the 31st of January. After that, I'll have to promise myself I won't overspend anymore!
Well... come to think of it... I spend a lot of money now cause I buy LOADS of cosmetics. Expensive, cheap, whatever. Sometimes even things I don't use. Back when I was too busy admiring my money in the envelope, I've not discovered the magic of makeup. I thought it was a bunch of unnecessary crap.
Hate to say I was wrong.
Till this day, I don't know why I like makeup so much. I don't know how I can admire a pink lipstick with gold shimmer and stare at it like there's a whole new revelation behind it. I just don't know. It's an interest, i guess. Or specifically, AN ADDICTION.
Back to finance, I hate to say this, but I'm gonna stop buying makeup.
Okay we all know that's a lie. I'll buy LESS makeup :P
What I've been up to the whole week:
1. Work--I had the least amount of books this week because of Chinese New Year. But my dad made me do some extra work. He's making me frame and type questions on every chapter of Around The World in 80 Days. I didn't finish reading it yet, but I did start typing questions. I'm only at Chapter 6. There are 17 chapters. My deadline is tomorrow :'(
2. Reading--I read some book called Once Was Lost. It's by Sara Zarr. I've been trying to get her other book, Sweethearts, but I couldn't so I got this one instead. Meh, this book was okay. It was mostly about doubting religion and how hypocritical religious people can be. It's nothing I don't already know. I like how it was written, but it wasn't my cup of tea.
3. Rediscovered Instagram and Omegle--Hated instagram but now I think it's okay. Omegle because I found the application for it on my phone so instead of tv late at night, I sort of irritated strangers :P
But i also met some nice people I didn't have the heart to annoy so I made decent conversations with them.
Other than that, mostly work. So, basically, I have no life. Internet wise, I don't go online often cause my dad switches off the connection :( Plus, I don't like facebook. Never did. I like blogging, but I need a long time to type a post so yeah. If you see me online, it's through my phone.
This is not good. Having bank accounts suck. I prefer the days when I kept money in some brown envelope cause then, I NEVER overspent money. I loved looking at the envelope thickening with money and I would rarely spend it. Unless of course...there was something I really, really wanted to get. Now, I don't know. I spend money like my mother grows a money tree behind our house (It would be awesome if she did). I can only imagine what I'd do if I have a credit card. You know what I should do? I should start reading up on self-control. And financial management.
I'll get my salary on the 31st of January. After that, I'll have to promise myself I won't overspend anymore!
Well... come to think of it... I spend a lot of money now cause I buy LOADS of cosmetics. Expensive, cheap, whatever. Sometimes even things I don't use. Back when I was too busy admiring my money in the envelope, I've not discovered the magic of makeup. I thought it was a bunch of unnecessary crap.
Hate to say I was wrong.
Till this day, I don't know why I like makeup so much. I don't know how I can admire a pink lipstick with gold shimmer and stare at it like there's a whole new revelation behind it. I just don't know. It's an interest, i guess. Or specifically, AN ADDICTION.
Back to finance, I hate to say this, but I'm gonna stop buying makeup.
Okay we all know that's a lie. I'll buy LESS makeup :P
What I've been up to the whole week:
1. Work--I had the least amount of books this week because of Chinese New Year. But my dad made me do some extra work. He's making me frame and type questions on every chapter of Around The World in 80 Days. I didn't finish reading it yet, but I did start typing questions. I'm only at Chapter 6. There are 17 chapters. My deadline is tomorrow :'(
2. Reading--I read some book called Once Was Lost. It's by Sara Zarr. I've been trying to get her other book, Sweethearts, but I couldn't so I got this one instead. Meh, this book was okay. It was mostly about doubting religion and how hypocritical religious people can be. It's nothing I don't already know. I like how it was written, but it wasn't my cup of tea.
3. Rediscovered Instagram and Omegle--Hated instagram but now I think it's okay. Omegle because I found the application for it on my phone so instead of tv late at night, I sort of irritated strangers :P
But i also met some nice people I didn't have the heart to annoy so I made decent conversations with them.
Other than that, mostly work. So, basically, I have no life. Internet wise, I don't go online often cause my dad switches off the connection :( Plus, I don't like facebook. Never did. I like blogging, but I need a long time to type a post so yeah. If you see me online, it's through my phone.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Probably going to be a long hiatus.
I rarely online. Even if I do get the chance to, I won't have time to type a proper blog post.
I do have time now. But I'm too lazy and tired to make one :P I went out the whole day today that's why.
I wake up near 12pm and sleep around 3am now. More books piling up, more compositions. More summaries. MORE. It's like SRM all over again. Hahaha. Only the proof-reading part, though.
The only day I get to laze around is Sunday. (I'm not complaining though. It's better than doing nothing at all)
So... I'll have to go on a hiatus. There's no way I'll be able to keep up with this blog daily. Weekly, probably. I don't know.
We'll have to see.
I do have time now. But I'm too lazy and tired to make one :P I went out the whole day today that's why.
I wake up near 12pm and sleep around 3am now. More books piling up, more compositions. More summaries. MORE. It's like SRM all over again. Hahaha. Only the proof-reading part, though.
The only day I get to laze around is Sunday. (I'm not complaining though. It's better than doing nothing at all)
So... I'll have to go on a hiatus. There's no way I'll be able to keep up with this blog daily. Weekly, probably. I don't know.
We'll have to see.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
I'm getting lazier
Everyday. Really.
Since I end work mostly at 1.30am now... I wake up in the morning extremely late. Sometimes 11.30am. Sometimes even as late as 12pm. That's why people who text me in the afternoon feel so weird that I have my breakfast at noon. Lol. It's brunch okay? I don't think I've taken lunch in a long long time :P
One of my New Year's Resolutions is actually to wake up early everyday. For no reason. I just want to get into the habit of waking up early because I read some blog somewhere that waking up early MIGHT make you happier. Might.
Not that I'm depressed or anything like that. I'm just extra homicidal in the morning.
Oh and one more thing I should clarify. Sometimes, I don't sleep immediately after finishing work. I watch tv :P For an hour.. Or if there's nothing good on tv, I watch a movie on my laptop.
So yeah I sleep reaaaaaaalllyyyyyyyy late.
I find it hard to sleep right after marking the books. It's like... like my brain is still functioning. Does that make sense? I mean, does that happen to any one of you? I am tired... but I always wondered. Is there such a thing that you get so tired you can't sleep? I think I asked my brother about it once.
It's all in the head.
And there's one more thing I'm really excited about.
I END MEDICATION ON THE 31ST OF JANUARY! IT'S COMING SOON, BETCHES! SOON!
Since I end work mostly at 1.30am now... I wake up in the morning extremely late. Sometimes 11.30am. Sometimes even as late as 12pm. That's why people who text me in the afternoon feel so weird that I have my breakfast at noon. Lol. It's brunch okay? I don't think I've taken lunch in a long long time :P
One of my New Year's Resolutions is actually to wake up early everyday. For no reason. I just want to get into the habit of waking up early because I read some blog somewhere that waking up early MIGHT make you happier. Might.
Not that I'm depressed or anything like that. I'm just extra homicidal in the morning.
Oh and one more thing I should clarify. Sometimes, I don't sleep immediately after finishing work. I watch tv :P For an hour.. Or if there's nothing good on tv, I watch a movie on my laptop.
So yeah I sleep reaaaaaaalllyyyyyyyy late.
I find it hard to sleep right after marking the books. It's like... like my brain is still functioning. Does that make sense? I mean, does that happen to any one of you? I am tired... but I always wondered. Is there such a thing that you get so tired you can't sleep? I think I asked my brother about it once.
It's all in the head.
And there's one more thing I'm really excited about.
I END MEDICATION ON THE 31ST OF JANUARY! IT'S COMING SOON, BETCHES! SOON!
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